For the Love of Pete

Guten tag kiddies! I’ll state up front that at the end of this post resides a link to a spectacular story dealing with a man, a lamb and a love so pure that only the authorities could tear them apart.

But before we get to that:

“All you need is love.” The Beatles

First, allow me rant for a second about citations. Does anyone honestly think that only Lennon and McCartney should get citations for Beatles work? Take for instance the song, "All You Need Is Love." Who would want to read that crap if it were a poem with no music? I’ll tell you who -nobody. It would be the substantive equal of a fourth grade acrostic. But add in some fantastically predictable drums ala Ringo and some subtly jangling guitar de Harrison and you’ve got a hit record.

Now for the real reason I quoted the boys from Britain. Is it possible to give love and not receive it in the form you want? How long can you truly love someone without them loving you back? (I just realized how sex in the cityish this format is)

This blogman was dumped by his lady about a month ago. After two years of my bullshit she walked. Don’t blame her. This brought on an intense period of introspection as to why I was the way I was. What it came down to was my whole life being a coutinuing and stalwart façade of ignoring emotion. In my past I did some shit that I wasn’t proud of due to being “in love.” Never, did I want this to happen again. So I shut down and became a stoic – concerned about the rational processing of life. Pretty crappy way to live. Consistently, I neglected the needs of my lady and eventually she left.

This, however, sparked a renewed desire in me to be with her and to be in love. Now, I have never been more in love with her than ever before and I of course I can’t have her. My soul has a burning desire to be with her, to hold her and to love her in any imaginable way – if she will only give me the word it shall be done. But she has made it clear to me that the feeling is not mutual. Though she still loves me, it is not in an intense man/woman (in this case), be with me forever, lets have babies type thing. It's more of a, "I care about you as a person type thing." What us normies call compassion. This brings me back to my original question – can we love with every fiber of our being and be satisfied with not having it returned? She is punishing me by requiring me to jump through hoops. And rightly so. I know she loves me still, just not in the same manner as before. Can I hold on and stick it out? Should I? I don’t know.

In my process of self-enlightenment I stumbled across some neo-hippie literature that stated, “To get love you must give love.” I agree with this. But what is this type of love? In my mind the true emotion that is referred to in this statement is compassion. Giving compassion to others breeds compassion from them. Very karmic. But love is not compassion. Love is a two way street that mandates both parties meet in the middle. As I continually (here comes a metaphor) sat in my car and kept the engine running for a quick getaway, she slowly backed away. As I never looked to see where she was, I now have to drive farther to find her. I now realize that what I should have done is gotten out, opened the door and let her into my pimp ride so we could cruise the streets together.

Love is mutual and not fleeting. To give love (truly) and not receive it is heat rendering. Can I continue to do so? We will see. I’ll keep you posted.



And now, on to the sheep humper:

http://www.azcentral.com/offbeat/articles/0306mesa-official.html