For the Love of Pete

Guten tag kids! I’ll state up front that at the end of this post is a link to a spectacular story that deals with a man, a lamb and a love so pure that only the authorities could rend it.

But before we get to that:

“All you need is love.” The Beatles

First let me rant for a second about citations. Does anyone honestly think that only Lennon and McCartney should get citations for Beatles work? Take for instance the song, All You Need Is Love. Who would want to read that crap if it were a poem with no music? I’ll tell you who -nobody. It would be the substantive equal of a fourth grade acrostic. But add in some fantastically stable drums ala Ringo and some subtly jangling guitar de Harrison and you’ve got a hit record.

Now for the real reason I quoted the boys from Britain. How long can you truly love someone without them loving you back? (I just realized how sex and the cityish this format is) Is it possible to give love and not receive it in the form you want?

This blogman was dumped by his lady about a month ago. After two years of my bullshit she walked. Don’t blame her. This brought on an intense period of introspection as to why I was the way I was. What it came down to was my whole life has been a façade of ignoring emotion. In my past I did some shit that I wasn’t proud of due to being “in love.” Never, did I want this to happen again. So I shut down and became a stoic – concerned about the rational processing of life. Pretty crappy way to live. Consistently, I neglected the needs of my lady and eventually she left.

This sparked, in me, a renewed desire to be with her. I have never been more in love with her than ever before and of course I can’t have her. My soul has a burning desire to be with her, to hold her and to love her in any imaginable way – if only she will tell me it will be done. But she has made it clear to me that the feeling is not mutual. This brings me back to my original question – can we love with every fiber of our being and be satisfied with not having it returned? I am being punished. And rightly so. I know she loves me still, just not in the same manner as before. Can I hold on and stick it out? I don’t know.

In my process of self-enlightenment I stumbled across some neo-hippie literature that stated, “To get love you must give love.” I agree with this. But what is this love? In my mind it is compassion. Giving compassion to others breeds compassion from them. Very karmic. But love is not compassion. Love is a two way street that mandates both parties drive towards each other. Love is mutual and not fleeting. To give love (truly) and not receive it is heat rendering. Can I continue to do so? We will see. I’ll keep you posted.



And now, on to the sheep humper:

http://www.azcentral.com/offbeat/articles/0306mesa-official.html